Writing is Not Like Riding a Bike

I feel a little sad right now in regard to writing, or not writing for that matter. One of the reasons why I started the blog was to encourage me to write everyday. When I kept the blog up to date I found that my writing kept improving and evolving. However, recently not only have I let the blog slide, but I also stopped my daily journaling and morning pages. For me writing is not like riding a bike. Once I take a break it's as if I've forgotten everything that I learned and I no longer have access to good and meaningful words. My writing is not the only thing that suffers, my relationship to my self suffers as well. When I'm at my best I am writing straight from my heart. I don't have to think about what I want to say, the words just flow through me. Over the course of the last month, since I haven't been writing, I have lost that ability to tap into myself and access my creativity. I struggle right now as I am writing this post to know what words to write next. But I knew this was bound to happen if I stopped writing everyday. So this doesn't come as any surprise, but still I am frustrated by the thought that that I am incapable of producing anything meaningful.

Now that I have committed myself to pursuing licensure for counseling, I am worried that I will get sidetracked and my writing will suffer even more. I am aware of my weaknesses and I am aware of the things that I let take me off course. I don't want to lose the most vital part of myself: the ability and desire to create.

I would love to have someone to write with once a week. I can see me and my imaginary writing friend sitting in a coffee shop writing together for an hour. It's a sweet vision, and it's something that could definitely exist in reality, I just need to find that person. Right now as far as writing goes, I mainly need to find myself again.